Today, I did something that I have never done before. Sam went golfing and I sent Lulu with her grandparents so I could be home by myself. I would have normally had way too much Mama guilt to even consider shipping Lulu off for the day but I needed a break. Don’t get me wrong, I love my daughter and I love spending time with her. Side Note-Isn’t it sad that I felt like I had to put that disclaimer in? Obviously, I love my daughter and I shouldn’t need to assure people of that but Mommie Shaming is so real. So rest assured, spending time with my daughter is still my absolute favorite thing to do. But sometimes, I need time to myself. Time that I don’t have to talk to anyone or do anything I don’t want to do. And that’s what I did today and let me tell you it was A-M-A-Z-I-N-G.
I ignored my to do list, I didn’t do chores and I most certainly did not worry about anyone else. Today I spent the day working on my blog (because I wanted to), painting my nails, watching soap operas and television shows my husband won’t watch with me, I played with makeup from my new Ipsy bag (You can see my Ipsy Glam Bag Review here) and from last month’s bag because it has taken me a whole month to get time to try out the products in this bag.
To be honest, I had a little bit of Mom guilt as I was waiving goodbye to Lulu but it quickly faded when I laid back down in bed and there was silence. Beautiful silence. No child whining because she wanted to climb the stairs or chew on her diaper cream bottle and I wouldn’t let her, no husband asking me to make breakfast. No one was depending on me for anything. For six perfect hours, I was alone and could be as selfish as I wanted.
Of course, by the end, I started to miss them but when they got home I was excited to see them. Playing with stuffed animals for an hour wasn’t a burden and I was happy to make dinner and hear about my husband’s day. I realized something so important. I needed this time alone, not only for myself but for my family. This short time alone, allowed me to relax and to feel like myself again which only made me a better wife and mother once they got home.
As moms, we often feel like if we give up any time with our family we are being ‘bad moms’. But honestly, sometimes the only way to be a good mom is to remember that you are a person outside of being a mother. Take time to yourself. Don’t do chores, don’t run errands. Just do anything and everything you actually want to do. I promise you won’t regret it and I promise your family will be better off because of it.